Detached From Reality

[rocker]

I am a day dreamer...I tend to glorify things in my mind or change things in my mind to make me happy. I am sure this is fairly normal...

But I do it so much I forget that the person I see myself as in my day dreams isn't me at all.

This of course leads to great disappointment and let down when it comes time for the actual event to occur. And it becomes even worse because I feel like crap.

Example: 6month anniversary with boyfriend. Had a nice little picnic planned...had it all thought out how sweet it would be and how nice it would be.

I ended up being 30min late cuz of traffic, forgot the salad dressing, soup wasnt good, he didn't like the pudding. I was in tears cuz it did not go as planned.

I cannot stop myself from thinking up stuff. And I bring myself to constant disappointment due to it.

Makes me all depressed and stuff

[Rainbow Blight]

I guess the moral of the story is not to have high expectations. Although it's a very cynical mindset to consider, people sometimes say "always expect the worst." I guess sometimes it's okay to be pessimistic. Murphy's Law says that "anything that could possibly go wrong, will."

I used to be an pretty optimistic person and would have high expectations, but hundreds of disappointments and failures and failures ended up turning me into the cynical bastard that I am today.

Nevertheless, I still have my rare optimistic moments and letdowns and they make me depressed too, so I totally know where you're coming from. Have solace in the fact that you know somone who shares similar problems.

I'm not sure as to how much I really helped, per se, but I hope it did make you feel at least a little better.

On a sidenote: Planning a picnic for your boyfriend, that's so sweet. Your boyfriend is the luckiest man in the world...well, apart from Bill Gates or that guy who invented Ikea, but he's pretty damn close.