Post by speeddevil49 on Jul 14, 2005 19:28:30 GMT -5
If I have a mental illness, I don't know what it is, what it's called, or what causes it. All I know is that I'm a depressing bastard to be around sometimes...
I can blame a few things that caused my depression on the people I hang out with or see every day... (I especially blame the birthgivers for some of my problems) My friends have this special thing they have called "If you hear that we're doing something, you're automatically invited to come if you want!" However, this rule appears to have been removed as of late, because of things like this
Friends: We're going to Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy tonight!
Speed: Cool, can I come too?
Friends: ...no.
Speed: Why not?
Friends: Just because...
Friends: We're having a couple people come over tonight!
Speed: Cool, can I come?
Friends: No!
Speed: But...but she's coming too, why can't I?
Friends: Because we said so, that's why!
Friends: We're going to the Stampede tomorrow
Speed: Cool, can I come with?
Friends: No.
Speed: Why not?
Friends: This is just for me, my folks, and my friends
Speed: uhhh...
Surely even one of you agrees with me, THAT SUCKS! Next on my shit list is ditching.
Friend: I'm coming over after summer school tomorrow
Speed: Okay
<next day>
*4:00 rolls around* (High school ends at 12:30, btw)
Speed: Ugh, where the hell is she?
*Friend's Mom comes online*
Friend's Mom: Aren't you with Friend?
Speed: No, she didn't come after school
<Later that evening>
Friend: Heheheheh...whoops...sorry...
Speed: Where were you?
Friend: I went to the mall with my other friends!
Speed: And I didn't even get a phone call to tell me you weren't gonna show?
Friend: Heehee...nope!
This isn't the only time it's happened...in the past 2 weeks, I've been ditched probably 4 - 6 times.
Finally, comes a wonderful section of my friends called Broken Promises!
Speed: Hey
Friend: Yo
Speed: Do you remember that thing you said you were gonna get me last month?
Friend: Oooh, right. Well, I changed my mind
<alternate version>
Friend: Oooh, right. I'll get it next time I have money for sure!
<alternate alternate version>
Friend: WHO THE FUCK CARES? It'S ONLY YOU! JESUS CHRIST!!!
...No, I'm not making any of this up. Probably the only promise I'm looking forward to is that someone promised to make sure my birthday was special, because I made her birthday wonderful...I asked her about 2 weeks ago
Speed: Remember the promise you made about my birthday?
Friend: What promise?
Speed: You said you were gonna do something to make my birthday awesome...
Friend: Uhhh...OH! Oh yeah, I remember!
I asked her again two days later, and she had forgotten again. I asked her one more time a couple days later again, and she got mad at me. I'm not gonna ask her again until three days 'til my birthday. I don't wanna piss her off so she swaps her mind...
Anyways, that's enough friend bashing, time to move onto the Birthgivers and Siblings... My brother was recently apprehended by the police for:
A) Smoking on school property with a pipe
B) Breaking and Entering
C) Destruction of Property
D) Robbery; and
E) Attempted Assault
My parents have him grounded for two weeks, then let the police make him do community service until all is well...
...I might have to take summer school for one class, and what happens to me? I'd be grounded for the entire summer AND I'd have to pay my own entry fee!
2 weeks grounding and community service...2 months grounding and have to pay my own fee...there is a HUGE margin there between the two faults, and personally, I find that very hard to work with.
One more topic before I stop...I have friends and family who thing I'm a bit of a crybaby or a wuss and doesn't deal with his own problems. I DON'T GIVE A RAT'S GERM-INFESTED BEHIND IF YOU CAN HANDLE IT, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THE STUPID RESPONSE YOU GAVE ME, J-FAG! In one day, I almost died six times, I got my head smashed in, I nearly broke my back, I wasted about $20 on something I didn't want, I got heat-stroke, food poisoning, a hole in my foot the size of a penny AND my friends tell me, "Pfft...could be worse..." No, no, NO!!! You do not say that to me if you value your testicles!
Anyways, that's enough ranting for right now. If you see me on the forums and I look upset, this is a pretty good start as to why I'm feeling like this. I also have love problems, but I don't feel like writting those right now...
I can blame a few things that caused my depression on the people I hang out with or see every day... (I especially blame the birthgivers for some of my problems) My friends have this special thing they have called "If you hear that we're doing something, you're automatically invited to come if you want!" However, this rule appears to have been removed as of late, because of things like this
Friends: We're going to Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy tonight!
Speed: Cool, can I come too?
Friends: ...no.
Speed: Why not?
Friends: Just because...
Friends: We're having a couple people come over tonight!
Speed: Cool, can I come?
Friends: No!
Speed: But...but she's coming too, why can't I?
Friends: Because we said so, that's why!
Friends: We're going to the Stampede tomorrow
Speed: Cool, can I come with?
Friends: No.
Speed: Why not?
Friends: This is just for me, my folks, and my friends
Speed: uhhh...
Surely even one of you agrees with me, THAT SUCKS! Next on my shit list is ditching.
Friend: I'm coming over after summer school tomorrow
Speed: Okay
<next day>
*4:00 rolls around* (High school ends at 12:30, btw)
Speed: Ugh, where the hell is she?
*Friend's Mom comes online*
Friend's Mom: Aren't you with Friend?
Speed: No, she didn't come after school
<Later that evening>
Friend: Heheheheh...whoops...sorry...
Speed: Where were you?
Friend: I went to the mall with my other friends!
Speed: And I didn't even get a phone call to tell me you weren't gonna show?
Friend: Heehee...nope!
This isn't the only time it's happened...in the past 2 weeks, I've been ditched probably 4 - 6 times.
Finally, comes a wonderful section of my friends called Broken Promises!
Speed: Hey
Friend: Yo
Speed: Do you remember that thing you said you were gonna get me last month?
Friend: Oooh, right. Well, I changed my mind
<alternate version>
Friend: Oooh, right. I'll get it next time I have money for sure!
<alternate alternate version>
Friend: WHO THE FUCK CARES? It'S ONLY YOU! JESUS CHRIST!!!
...No, I'm not making any of this up. Probably the only promise I'm looking forward to is that someone promised to make sure my birthday was special, because I made her birthday wonderful...I asked her about 2 weeks ago
Speed: Remember the promise you made about my birthday?
Friend: What promise?
Speed: You said you were gonna do something to make my birthday awesome...
Friend: Uhhh...OH! Oh yeah, I remember!
I asked her again two days later, and she had forgotten again. I asked her one more time a couple days later again, and she got mad at me. I'm not gonna ask her again until three days 'til my birthday. I don't wanna piss her off so she swaps her mind...
Anyways, that's enough friend bashing, time to move onto the Birthgivers and Siblings... My brother was recently apprehended by the police for:
A) Smoking on school property with a pipe
B) Breaking and Entering
C) Destruction of Property
D) Robbery; and
E) Attempted Assault
My parents have him grounded for two weeks, then let the police make him do community service until all is well...
...I might have to take summer school for one class, and what happens to me? I'd be grounded for the entire summer AND I'd have to pay my own entry fee!
2 weeks grounding and community service...2 months grounding and have to pay my own fee...there is a HUGE margin there between the two faults, and personally, I find that very hard to work with.
One more topic before I stop...I have friends and family who thing I'm a bit of a crybaby or a wuss and doesn't deal with his own problems. I DON'T GIVE A RAT'S GERM-INFESTED BEHIND IF YOU CAN HANDLE IT, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THE STUPID RESPONSE YOU GAVE ME, J-FAG! In one day, I almost died six times, I got my head smashed in, I nearly broke my back, I wasted about $20 on something I didn't want, I got heat-stroke, food poisoning, a hole in my foot the size of a penny AND my friends tell me, "Pfft...could be worse..." No, no, NO!!! You do not say that to me if you value your testicles!
Anyways, that's enough ranting for right now. If you see me on the forums and I look upset, this is a pretty good start as to why I'm feeling like this. I also have love problems, but I don't feel like writting those right now...
